The Best of us can find Happiness in Misery

so before i begin this night of cleaning…

i’ve realized how much my life has changed by moving to San Antonio. I know I bitch about it all the time and I absolutely loathed it in the beginning…

but going through a depression changes a person. I’m sucha different person after moving here and I know that if I’d stayed in Florida, I was too weak to be the person I am. I would’ve hung out wit hall the wrong people and been influenced by all the wrong things. Coming here and being alone showed me my true strength and that I am “the master of my fate… the captain of my soul”. I choose who I am, I choose how I feel, I choose what I do. Now I know that when I move to Orlando, yeah I’m gonna be self conscious like I’ve always been but I won’t care… I’m a strong, beautiful, highly intelligent, motivated, hard working woman that any man would be lucky to snatch. 

And right now I realized my whole life I prayed for patience… acceptance, to just stop worrying.
That was achieved when I move here.

Thank you, Dear Lord, for blessing me with this time of my life.

Posted 1 week ago

so lately i’ve noticed i’m gayer than originally thought.

i’m okay with this :)

Posted 1 week ago

thanks to my friend mayra,

and she probably doesn’t know this,
my whole life is going to change.

i’m going to be in shape. i’m going to exercise to get out my feelings instead of sitting around. i’m gonna have control over my life.

thank you, dear friend mayra,

you’ll forever be in my heart :)

Posted 1 week ago